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I have it for 4 years and got almost completely desensitized. It is a relief. It’s still there (and right now it rings). But it doesn’t create colorful reaction
by wruza 3y ago
I have it for 4 years and got almost completely desensitized. It is a relief. It’s still there (and right now it rings). But it doesn’t create colorful reactions anymore. During the day, at night, before sleep, it rarely bothers me. Sometimes I even feel comfy about it.
In my case the secret was a sort of a therapy. At the second year I’ve become quite suicidal about it. There was a point in time after collecting all the information there is, when I absolutely ultimately had to make a decision. As a result of this thought process, “I will die with it” got fully accepted either way. Somehow this deadened my reactions and after a short while it became just a part of my life that I ignore. My brain got so good at masking it that I have to carefully listen sometimes (yeah, it’s there and it’s loud). I also stopped looking for a cure, relief, methods, threads like this. Not like “I shouldn’t”, but like “not interested”.
Pretty sure I must not recommend this way or leave it without a disclaimer: if you feel the same, then get professional help, don’t go through it alone.
My key insight is that you suffer while the hope lives, not that you have to lean over the edge to realize that.
Edit: upvote to https://mynoise.net https://mynoise.net, it helped to mask it at early stages much better than colored noises or youtube videos. You can tune sound components to your case and there’s a lot of presets now.
- mettamage 3y ago> My key insight is that you suffer while the hope lives, not that you have to lean over the edge to realize that. Same insight. I never got quite down to the deep end as you did, but I recognize the despair. I'm glad you're okay with it now, life is wonderful even with tinnitus :) I once got a 10 seconds full temporary relief using the Wim Hof Method (probably due to lack of oxygen in the brain at that point, lol). That was a mystical experience. It was really tough to replicate as I had to not breathe for at least 2.5 minutes and I was doing this with doctors (for a WHM experiment conducted by the Radboud University) and I was almost at the point of passing out. I consider these 10 seconds as a gift, I never chased it.
- dalmo3 3y agoHad a similar experience the one time I tried Wim Hof Method at home, unassited. My tinnitus was very mild, I was trying WHM for other reasons. However, after those 10 quiet seconds, the ringing came back much louder than before, and has stayed like that since. WHM, never again.
- mettamage 3y agoI'm sorry to hear that. For me it came back the same. Thanks that you're mentioning your experience. The dangerous sides of the WHM are wholly underexplored and we need to know more of it.
- cableshaft 3y agoMine isn't so bad I'd have suicidal thoughts. But sometimes it briefly gets bad enough that I go...man, if I get it that bad permanently at some point in the future, would I want to continue living? The Texas Roadhouse CEO killing himself in part because of severe tinnitus[1] sometimes makes sense to me, and that's scary. I'd have never considered I'd ever want to do that, even being in chronic pain...but if I had to deal with my tinnitus at its worst, all the time? I don't know. At the very least I'm pretty certain I wouldn't just do it suddenly and without warning; I'd have conversations with people I love so they know what I'm dealing with and why I'm considering it and doctors and try to make it better first. [1]: https://www.npr.org/sections/coronavirus-live-updates/2021/03/22/979929592/texas-roadhouse-founder-kent-taylor-dies-after-struggle-with-post-covid-19-sympt https://www.npr.org/sections/coronavirus-live-updates/2021/0...