The voice thing still surprises me. I have a constant monologue and I honestly can't separate that from "thinking". I was always aware mine was more random/sill

The voice thing still surprises me. I have a constant monologue and I honestly can't separate that from "thinking". I was always aware mine was more random/silly/manic than most and likely faster, basically a chatter box that won't shut up vs the calmer "can stop and listen" type voice I presumed normal brains have. But I struggle to imagine not having an inner voice at all. I have brief moments if I'm really in the zone or absorbed by a book or a film where it quietens or fades away but as soon as I actively think anything it's immediately back. Is it not really boring not having one? Like how do you talk to yourself to think things through? Can you even do that? If it's not obvious I have ADHD, specifically inattentive, so getting lost in my thoughts is my default state. On the picturing things side, I don't know how to describe it. I can just imagine objects, models, layouts etc in my mind and turn around like in modelling software. It's completely separate to my vision, the images are in my "mind's eye" or mental space and it doesn't have anymore impact on my visual awareness than any other kind of thinking. I can take the models from my mind and overlay them on my sight but it takes much more concentration to imagine things that way. It's easier to build/edit in my mind and then check against vision. I'm also better at certain types of mental picturing than others. Visuospatial thing like floor plans, 3D models, visualising a street route etc are easy and natural for me. Colour I can do to an extent but it's harder and I need to reference reality more. 2D is a little harder than 3D, no idea why. Non technical images like art are harder too. Though that could just be the 2D thing as technical images are easy to imagine 3D. Landscapes and faces are easier too now I think of it which backs that up. I learned early on not everyone can do it. We had Tech classes in S1-2 of high school (11-13) where we learned 3D technical drawing. It made immediate sense to me, I just turned the object in my head and drew it from different perspectives. But I learned that wasn't something most of my classmates could just naturally do. Lots of them learned it with practise but it took a while and some of them just couldn't do it.