That word "purpose" terrifies me. Along with it's sibling "meaning". I (now) understand that purpose is something you define for yourself, i.e. it's not pre-ord

That word "purpose" terrifies me. Along with it's sibling "meaning". I (now) understand that purpose is something you define for yourself, i.e. it's not pre-ordained in nature for you. But I feel like the need to find purpose has terrorized me my whole life. I'm only now starting to understand that I don't need a purpose to live for or to justify my existence, but it's a constant effort to remember that and fight the nagging fear that I'll never find my purpose.