I really appreciate this reply, it doesn't help either of us to know we aren't alone in this experience but I appreciate the effort it takes to be honest and op

I really appreciate this reply, it doesn't help either of us to know we aren't alone in this experience but I appreciate the effort it takes to be honest and open about struggles like this. > I'm trying to leave the industry entirely, but even that's more difficult than you'd expect. I still want to code, or at least part of me still thinks it can be an enjoyable thing whether I am paid to do it or not. Its not the work that's the problem, it's the people and how they treat me. You cannot convince someone to "fix" a problem when their salary depends on them being blissfully unaware. Personally, I'm making fishing lures. https://www.verticaltubejig.com https://www.verticaltubejig.com Weather has been shit lately so its been a while since I have been able to get out. Pictures and video of my adventures help me remember it wasn't all a dream. Im so bad at giving myself credit for things. In the depths of despair over my job hunt its been a literal liferaft to keep my head above water to do fishing stuff.