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I have skills but I struggle to get past the interview process. My peers seem to be able to bounce back from job losses / layoffs but I'm just in a death spiral

I have skills but I struggle to get past the interview process. My peers seem to be able to bounce back from job losses / layoffs but I'm just in a death spiral. I want to die. My next steps are medicating myself into compliance or inpatient / outpatient psychiatric care. I am at my breaking point after 5+ years of failure, struggle and pain. When I end up in jobs I routinely hear "wow you can do all of that? why are you here?!" The problem is a lack of social skills combined with bad luck in jobs. I cant control managers driving the car off the cliff and destroying projects I worked on / companies I worked for. I don't have the golden parachutes they did and all I am left with is the wreckage of a failed career.

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notsurenymore 3y ago
> When I end up in jobs I routinely hear "wow you can do all of that? why are you here?!" My guess is that this isn't reflected well on your resume. I've done a lot of interesting things and impressed a few people myself, but it's never anything that really fits on the resume. Then when I go job searching, all they see is the BS resume and are rightfully unimpressed. I don't think there's a good way out. I'm trying to leave the industry entirely, but even that's more difficult than you'd expect.
- dirtybirdnj 3y ago
  I really appreciate this reply, it doesn't help either of us to know we aren't alone in this experience but I appreciate the effort it takes to be honest and open about struggles like this. > I'm trying to leave the industry entirely, but even that's more difficult than you'd expect. I still want to code, or at least part of me still thinks it can be an enjoyable thing whether I am paid to do it or not. Its not the work that's the problem, it's the people and how they treat me. You cannot convince someone to "fix" a problem when their salary depends on them being blissfully unaware. Personally, I'm making fishing lures. https://www.verticaltubejig.com https://www.verticaltubejig.com Weather has been shit lately so its been a while since I have been able to get out. Pictures and video of my adventures help me remember it wasn't all a dream. Im so bad at giving myself credit for things. In the depths of despair over my job hunt its been a literal liferaft to keep my head above water to do fishing stuff.

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notsurenymore 3y ago

> When I end up in jobs I routinely hear "wow you can do all of that? why are you here?!" My guess is that this isn't reflected well on your resume. I've done a lot of interesting things and impressed a few people myself, but it's never anything that really fits on the resume. Then when I go job searching, all they see is the BS resume and are rightfully unimpressed. I don't think there's a good way out. I'm trying to leave the industry entirely, but even that's more difficult than you'd expect.

dirtybirdnj 3y ago
I really appreciate this reply, it doesn't help either of us to know we aren't alone in this experience but I appreciate the effort it takes to be honest and open about struggles like this. > I'm trying to leave the industry entirely, but even that's more difficult than you'd expect. I still want to code, or at least part of me still thinks it can be an enjoyable thing whether I am paid to do it or not. Its not the work that's the problem, it's the people and how they treat me. You cannot convince someone to "fix" a problem when their salary depends on them being blissfully unaware. Personally, I'm making fishing lures. https://www.verticaltubejig.com https://www.verticaltubejig.com Weather has been shit lately so its been a while since I have been able to get out. Pictures and video of my adventures help me remember it wasn't all a dream. Im so bad at giving myself credit for things. In the depths of despair over my job hunt its been a literal liferaft to keep my head above water to do fishing stuff.