I want what I wear to have meaning. The problem with symbolism is that it only matters if someone is paying attention. The longing for clothes is really desire

I want what I wear to have meaning. The problem with symbolism is that it only matters if someone is paying attention. The longing for clothes is really desire for a social circle that cares what I wear, and events that require meaningful statements of fashion, and that the whole thing retains vital energy. The problem is intractable.