Up until a couple years ago was pretty depressed and absolutely burned out at work. I could not focus on the now, always thinking of what was next. Could not ju

Up until a couple years ago was pretty depressed and absolutely burned out at work. I could not focus on the now, always thinking of what was next. Could not just enjoy sitting down with my family. I had been like this for years, was also very out of shape. I used to dread getting up in the morning and having to log in. I'm mid 40's for context. I used to be in excellent shape. I got on TRT and started working out again. The boost in self confidence, and ability to just be calm was immense. I am now in close to the best shape of my life and definitely stronger than I have ever been. I have been working on my diet as well. On top of that I started smoking marijuana after work. I consume cannabis probably 3 - 4 times a week. It has worked miracles for my ability to just be in the moment. I can just sit and talk to my kids or play sports with them. I'm not focused on constantly learning new things or doom scrolling. I have noticed a huge improvement in my entire families well being as I am more present. My wife has noticed the same. We just sit and talk for hours, something we had not done since before the kids. My kids do not know I smoke and I likely wont tell them until after high school as at the end of the day it is a drug. I drink maybe 1 drink a week if that. These 2 things worked wonders for me and my depressed state of being and my inability to connect with the now. It allows me to appreciate what I have instead of always focusing on what I want to achieve. I am also excelling at work. Not advocating for others to try, just wanted to say what worked for me.