It sounds like you have a lot on your plate. I would do a few things. First, I would start looking for a new job. It doesn’t have to be like this. Second, I w

It sounds like you have a lot on your plate. I would do a few things. First, I would start looking for a new job. It doesn’t have to be like this. Second, I would snowball my tasks. I would start with the smallest, complete it, and then start the next one. You need to build some momentum. Third, I would enforce a personal WIP limit. When you ship something, grab something new. These are all pretty work related, so I will add one more thing. No job is worth your life. If you feel bad at a place, focus on your home life and find a new job.