I once secured a box of Ritalin. It does wonders to me (sadly it was never possible for me to receive legally) but I feel the way I don't quite like once it wea

I once secured a box of Ritalin. It does wonders to me (sadly it was never possible for me to receive legally) but I feel the way I don't quite like once it wears off in some hours. Is Vyvanse better? At the same time as I slowly work on the other options I mentioned I get the sense of meaning, improvement, progress in gaining what will stay with me wherever I go. Practicing and progressing in these feel like the very sense my job makes, otherwise it would feel like "work another month, pay the bills, grow the savings a bit and gain nothing real". So I stick to the options and take the meds sporadically. And I don't quite like the idea of putting ever-increasing stress and suboptimal working and living conditions on people and sort of telling them "just take your meds and work".