I got used to it. It’s just after a lot of exposure I stopped being bothered. It just becomes very matter of fact. Occasionally I see things that blow my mind,

I got used to it. It’s just after a lot of exposure I stopped being bothered. It just becomes very matter of fact. Occasionally I see things that blow my mind, but not in a bad way. More so just fascination. And, there are a couple of surgeries that still make me squeamish such as eye surgery, and also surgery on fingers and toes. I can watch open heart surgery, and be completely unfazed, and I can see mangled human bodies that have been severely damaged in motor vehicle accidents, and not get caught up in the horror of it, but rather just focus on the fact that in front of me lays a body, and therefore a person who needs help, and I can put my emotions to one side, and focus on the actual job of helping to fix it, in the hopes of reducing suffering and improving quality of life. But also, I think our bodies are special despite how they may come across in an anatomy textbook. And for all the empirical scientific evidence in the world, no one can tell you what actually is consciousness, or where it comes from - that’s pretty special in my own personal opinion. Overall, I think your feelings are a normal part of the process, and you will either get used to it, or maybe realise it’s just not the right career path for you.