I've had two surgeries where I've had to be put under. It kind of helped, as far as my anxiety for death goes. I went from counting backwards, to being awoken,

I've had two surgeries where I've had to be put under. It kind of helped, as far as my anxiety for death goes. I went from counting backwards, to being awoken, in what felt like an instant. No grand dreams or things like that...just waking up and feeling groggy in what felt like a couple of seconds, when in reality 60-90 minutes had passed. But, what if I hadn't woken up - what if I had died on the operating table? It would still have been lights out and absolute nothingness. I can only hope that death will be the same. One minute you're there, then nothingness. The process of dying seems to be much worse than death itself, so I hope I'll go quickly (huge aneurism, massive heart attack, etc.) or heavily sedated.