> My friends: well, I am usually the person that is supporting them when they are in crisis. It's time to call that in. Get your friends together and tell them

> My friends: well, I am usually the person that is supporting them when they are in crisis. It's time to call that in. Get your friends together and tell them that this time you need their help. Don't face this alone. And judging from your resume - and I mean this with all kindness - you may need some mental health support. I don't know how it works where you are, but are there public or charitable options for this? Please: try to find some help. I suspect you may need this before you can find solutions to your more tangible problems. I wish you well.