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> adhd + addictive drugs? Head scratcher. I have a nagging suspicion it’s the next OxyContin, personally. If I am Icarus, then stimulants are my wax wings. Sti
by hirvi74 3y ago
> adhd + addictive drugs? Head scratcher. I have a nagging suspicion it’s the next OxyContin, personally.
If I am Icarus, then stimulants are my wax wings. Stimulants have been the cause and solution to most of my problems in life over the past decade.
Some days, I truly feel like I made a deal with the Devil. But what alternative do I have? The world has no sympathy and even less empathy. I want to survive in this world like everyone else.
Sure, I do not technically need them to survive. I wasn't even diagnosed until my early 20s. However, I've had a taste of the good life, and I can't go back.
I do not think I am clinically addicted, but I am very psychologically and physically dependent on stimulants.
One sick thought that occasionally ruminates inside my mind is that while I feel like the medications have helped me so much, I look around me -- look back on my life -- and I literally have accomplished nothing. I have nothing to show for any of it. Life is "stable", for sure. Same underpaid, miserable job for 7 years now, but really, that's it...
I do not care what any medical research paper or any doctor says. These medications are powerful psychoactive substances. I think they absolutely fuck with one's mind, and one's perception of reality albeit in subtle ways. I am starting to wonder if my perception of reality has been warped in to making me think I have been performing better than I actually have been all these years.
I'm not really sure how to end this scattered rant, but all I can say is that I've lost a lot of faith in psychiatry and psychology because of ADHD and its treatments. ADHD is the most treatable psychiatric condition? Seriously?
- kanbara 3y agoas a counterpoint if we’re doing anecdotes: i had adhd diagnosed as a kid, medicated for a while, then stopped. didnt do great in school, just ok. struggled at uni with timekeeping and grades. made it decently, and then had some decent jobs. got quite lucky, but always had issues with social skills and being too talkative. eventually got a tough job that needed a lot of personal initative and went back on meds. vyvanse has changed my life, allowed me to focus on my thoughts, keep organised, and not only helped me excel, but also fix my sleep schedule, get promoted, and just generally live like a normal person.
- hirvi74 3y agoI mainly use Dexy (Dexedrine), but ironically, I cannot handle Vyvanse. Something about it sends me off the rails. I think it is due to some underlying metabolic reasoning i.e., I metabolize it way too quickly, but I have no idea. How long does Vyvanse last for you? At best I could only ever get 4-6 hours out of it.
- tpoacher 3y agoout of curiosity, and a total longshot, any chance you have Gilbert Syndrome? (if yes would you mind letting me now? For "research" purposes)