I’m very sorry you’ve had bad experiences and difficult circumstances. Of course, no one can make you follow a treatment protocol: you have to want the freedom

I’m very sorry you’ve had bad experiences and difficult circumstances. Of course, no one can make you follow a treatment protocol: you have to want the freedom that comes with conquering your fear, and be willing to go through some discomfort to get there. It’s a very personal choice. I will say again that if you’re inclined, you might consider starting with something that seems like a small challenge. Even a small victory can really boost your confidence and motivation. Finally, you might consider working with a therapist. Telehealth is a nice option that works well for many people.