While to some degree I think I’ve had somewhat similar experiences, at other times (when I was a teen) when I’ve specifically tried to think-without-words, I t

While to some degree I think I’ve had somewhat similar experiences, at other times (when I was a teen) when I’ve specifically tried to think-without-words, I thought I had, and then shortly afterwards either realized or thought I had realized, that I had been thinking with words, and had just been hiding the words from myself?