I've been dreaming of transistors since I got a kit for some electronics projects as a kid, but after frying a few components I also went on to web applications

I've been dreaming of transistors since I got a kit for some electronics projects as a kid, but after frying a few components I also went on to web applications. I designed a CPU in Logisim after watching Ben Eater's videos, but I don't know if I have it in me to turn it into a physical thing. I'd love to get one onto an FPGA, or if I won the lottery some day, have one fabricated.