I'm having a real hard time with this, not as hard as the people that new her personally I'm sure. But here's why Nova's passing is still so hard for me persona

I'm having a real hard time with this, not as hard as the people that new her personally I'm sure. But here's why Nova's passing is still so hard for me personally. I grew up having my social life on the internet with strangers I don't meet. That is mostly it for me. I don't go to churches. I don't make close friends at work, generally. Nova is someone I knew through these same circles but didn't really interact with more than a handful of times. She made an outsized impact on me. She was a pillar of the community. I feel strange mourning her as if I knew her personally. We never spoke outside of Twitch, Discord, chirp-box, Github. Not because I didn't want to know her, mainly because I am weird and didn't want to make things awkward, and I hope she appreciated not being bothered. I carried Hacking Capitalism with me all the way to Detroit to get it signed, and carried it around the conference hoping I'd get a chance to say Hi and it wouldn't be weird. That chance never came and now I definitely have the regret. But I do feel like I knew her better than I know most of y'all, who I call friends. Nova made an impact on me, as well as many other people, and she will be missed.