I honestly thought I'd gotten away with it. Not being immoral, just working at Amazon. Everyone else I knew who had left Amazon was left with some sort of ex-Am

I honestly thought I'd gotten away with it. Not being immoral, just working at Amazon. Everyone else I knew who had left Amazon was left with some sort of ex-Amazonian PTSD, constantly worried about falling below a performance threshold and being fired, or struggling to rid themselves of Amazon's toxicity (many of them grew increasingly toxic at Amazon, and left because they didn't like feeling that way). Now, almost four years after leaving my job at AWS, it's finally catching up with me, too -- I'm finding myself with a growing sense that I'm going to be fired out of the blue. It's only two weeks since I had my mid-year review with my manager, where I was told I'm performing fine; and yet, I'm inexplicably and irrationally worried that he was lying and that I'm going to find myself on whatever our equivalent of a PIP is. There's a reason I caution young engineers to avoid Amazon. Don't get me wrong, Amazon catapulted me from a my job as a one-man IT department to an incredibly comfortable life as a senior engineer -- but it was the only tech company willing to make me an offer back then. If you have other choices, don't choose Amazon.