You have all the signs of ADHD. I highly recommend you find a therapist and also get an ADHD evaluation. Maybe find a therapist who specializes in ADHD. And

You have all the signs of ADHD. I highly recommend you find a therapist and also get an ADHD evaluation. Maybe find a therapist who specializes in ADHD. And remember this is not a moral failing or a motivational issue. Therapy will help you see that you are not alone and you learn tools to help debug your mind. I see a lot of positives in your post which might be hard for you to see. 1. You care. 2. You love. 3. You can teach. 4. You are loveable. If your lack of degrees is upsetting to you, you can get your GED and even enroll in a college courses. You can skip the GED and go straight to a community college for example. There are a lot of options. You could for example take classes in psychology and learn about yourself and eventually become a therapist (if you wanted to). Or you could start a summer community ed program teaching high school kids (and others) to program for your local school district. Anyway, it also sounds like you can program and there are a lot of non-traditional programs around. At the same time these types of programs expose you to other folks will help you build your network if you connect with each other. You can do it! I believe in you.