I grew up Rural and farmed with my grandfather, eventually had to move to a city and hated it ever since. I dont know how people can live in urban and suburban

I grew up Rural and farmed with my grandfather, eventually had to move to a city and hated it ever since. I dont know how people can live in urban and suburban areas willingly. I miss the greenery, the wild animals and planting random shit in the yard to see what grows. I miss having no HOAs and just doing what I want in my yard. Ironically the only thing I liked about las vegas was going out into the mountians and relaxing/hiking/camping in the forests to remind me of home. Concrete crowds and asphalt for some reason kills my motivation to do anything after work.