I assumed I wasn’t applying myself, or didn’t use the right learning style, or whatever else was being offered as a suggestion. It didn’t help that I was a kid

I assumed I wasn’t applying myself, or didn’t use the right learning style, or whatever else was being offered as a suggestion. It didn’t help that I was a kid in the early 90s, when Ritalin was getting big, and some parents (like mine) were staunchly opposed to medicating kids for supposed normal behavior. I found much later in life that the only things that consistently motivated me were a looming deadline, or severe consequences to failure. The lone exception was computer puzzles, by which I mean things like “how do I get this obscure Chinese sound card running in Gentoo,” or “how does a file actually get written to a drive? oh look blkparse…” About a year ago, I got an ADHD diagnosis for primarily inattentive type, and my life changed. There have been some tweaks here and there to medication and dosage, but the amount of focus I can now devote to tasks which previously would be monstrously difficult - like writing Jira stories - is amazing.