Presumably you spent 12 years or more as a full time student. And that resulted in the life you have now. If “passive” watching stresses you out maybe try thi

Presumably you spent 12 years or more as a full time student. And that resulted in the life you have now. If “passive” watching stresses you out maybe try this: take notes, think about how to explain the one or two main concepts to your kids (or wife). Presumably: your kids are students now: it’s chance to demonstrate that you value learning in your own life (not just on their report card).