I thought he was just saying he doesn't have an excuse for not being able to communicate what's happened or how he's feeling about it in words, since at the ver

I thought he was just saying he doesn't have an excuse for not being able to communicate what's happened or how he's feeling about it in words, since at the very least it's his job, if not his purpose in life. I didn't interpret him as saying he knew everything as a result of that, or that he had special access to the truth.