I have very, very severe maladaptive daydreaming and it is absolutely a form of disassociation for me. I was abused as a child by my parents and underserved by

I have very, very severe maladaptive daydreaming and it is absolutely a form of disassociation for me. I was abused as a child by my parents and underserved by schools - there was no way out so I learned how to entertain myself doing nothing because anything I did would be 'wrong' and punished. As an adult it's pain coping - I have multiple sclerosis and of course I don't want to be present in my body: It HURTS here. I am also poor (see: disability) + in my 30s with no kids, so not much of a social life or benefit from being present. I spend most/all of my time at least somewhat disassociated. It's my default state.