I have the group of symptoms know as ADHD. I was not diagnosed until I was a 22.5 years old a.k.a (my 5/6 year of undergrad). I grew up in the South Eastern par

I have the group of symptoms know as ADHD. I was not diagnosed until I was a 22.5 years old a.k.a (my 5/6 year of undergrad). I grew up in the South Eastern parts of the United States some many moons ago. There was no such thing as "ADHD" or any kind of other disorders back then. The school system didn't screen people for shit. You were either "normal" or "severely mentally deficient" -- even then we might share the same classroom. I could go on and on about all the Hell I was put through, but all I can say is that the school system ruined my childhood and teenage years. It wasn't just school. It was my parents, my friends' parents (both to a lesser degree), coaches, etc.. I do not harbor any hatred towards anyone because of it. It was no one's fault -- literally no one knew. I was smart enough to get by, so clear there couldn't be anything wrong with me, right? If I am being honest, all the issues I faced while younger still affects me to this day. As and adult, I still have virtually no confidence in myself. But how could I? I did/still live my life from one failure to the next. I was not unintelligent, but I'm also nothing to write home about. The world works one way; I work another. I'll never achieve what I am "capable" of in life. But that's okay, I won't be the next FAANG developer, and maybe it's not all it's cracked up to be. We all die in the end anyway. My goal is to just enjoy my life from here on out. Not sure how, but I'm just taking it each day at a time.