Hey thanks a lot for your detailed reply. As I was writing my post more things I wanted to express kept coming out. My mind and interests are kind of a mess, I

Hey thanks a lot for your detailed reply. As I was writing my post more things I wanted to express kept coming out. My mind and interests are kind of a mess, I wish I had two realities in parallel so I could be a mech eng in one and a software eng in the other. I’m actually in my early 30s, I followed an unconventional path with a country change in my early 20s thanks to motorsports and luck, but postponed school. My goal is to be proud enough of my knowledge to call myself a developer, not much tbh. I think I don’t do that right now because I don’t know at what level other devs are in their day to day, and my only point of reference is HN where everyone seems to have a postdoc. I also think I’m too humble for this space and location. I went to a VC party last Friday and I noticed everyone seemed to be lying up in what they did, but once I peeled the outer layer, we were all trying to figure it out. I do have a very stable job with great benefits (and pension!) so I’m not planning on leaving that right now, but I have free time I want to use wisely.