Something that weirdly helped me was watching live programming (not tutorials) of good engineers where they try and tinker - an example is geohot's 5 hour stint

Something that weirdly helped me was watching live programming (not tutorials) of good engineers where they try and tinker - an example is geohot's 5 hour stints on YT. It made me realise that good engineers don't have any mysterious unknown tool or advantage, they're just relentless researchers when trying to solve their problem (i.e. using Google, Wikipedia, API docs)