I keep on saying the same but i dont know if im kidding myself or what, iv'e been trying for such a long time and seen close to zero results no matter how i am

I keep on saying the same but i dont know if im kidding myself or what, iv'e been trying for such a long time and seen close to zero results no matter how i am doing it i am now in the CP102 after getting a 'C' on CP 101, i will admit that i gave up back then since the teacher was extremely inconsiderate with my situation so now with the new teacher, a new beginning i promised myself to not give up no matter how hard it might seem, but here i am again feeling completely overwhelmed and on the verge of giving up but giving up again is not really an option