I'll never forget the night that I was crying for some reason or another, and my Dad came in and said I was nothing like himself or my big brother, and was more

I'll never forget the night that I was crying for some reason or another, and my Dad came in and said I was nothing like himself or my big brother, and was more akin to my depressed alcoholic mother (obviously he didn't say this, but he said I was more like my mum and that's how I perceive her to a point). Unfortunately I was raised by two people so opposite on the emotional scale that I still have no idea how to regulate my emotions so I just don't show any.