At first i want to say, thanks for your reply. I wasn't hoping that someone will respond. Currently i have 26 years behind me, wife and one year old son. I end

At first i want to say, thanks for your reply. I wasn't hoping that someone will respond. Currently i have 26 years behind me, wife and one year old son. I ended bachelor and master degree in some city with 1.3kk population in Russia. And i don't have answer for your question "what do I want out of life?". I jumped in IT when i was 18 years old and was choosing to which faculty go. At the first 1-2-3 years of working i was really eager to work, learn and you know my eyes were burning. But know it's just seems like an ordinary work every day. I often want not to do tasks and do something else. But sometimes that fire from old days are burning my soul and i'm trying to read smth or touch new technologies. Ofc i'm doing this stuff when i have energy after working and spending time with my son. And i don't think i will be able to find strength and power to prepare to new interviews. And you know i think i have 3-4-5 more years before my brain will not help me in my work