This part seemed crazy disrespectful and almost dismissive of anxiety but maybe I'm misinterpreting it? "By this point, I’ve pretty much come to terms with the

This part seemed crazy disrespectful and almost dismissive of anxiety but maybe I'm misinterpreting it? "By this point, I’ve pretty much come to terms with the fact that I may never know what makes Meg White tick, other than what I’ve projected upon her as a fellow shy person and interminable mumbler—albeit one who unfortunately did not achieve a level of success in my twenties and thirties allowing me to not leave my house."