I don't know how it ends and I can't read the end. Every time I try, I have this strange feeling that as long as I don't read it, it can't happen; what ever it

I don't know how it ends and I can't read the end. Every time I try, I have this strange feeling that as long as I don't read it, it can't happen; what ever it is; that the story, and the fate of all those strange and magical personalities hangs in limbo until I - specifically, I - finish reading, at which point the whole house of cards will simply spontaneously combust and leave me with a pile of ashes in my lap and smoke in my hair. I've never been involved with a book like IJ before. Well now, that sounds pretty silly, doesn't it?