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Glad to hear it, sir. To be clear, despite years and $30k+ in therapy, I'm still undeniably fucked up. By and large, they've been good therapists. IMO, the b

Glad to hear it, sir. To be clear, despite years and $30k+ in therapy, I'm still undeniably fucked up. By and large, they've been good therapists. IMO, the best have done their best. Recently I'm coming around to the realization that extended periods of stress as an adolescent does long-term damage. I was struggling and wishing for death or any alternative to my painful reality frequently from the ages of 12-17 years old. On the outside, I am a successful executive on the cutting edge at a very large firm, but my personal life has been a tour of one mess to the next. My current partner is a great person, couldn't tell you a single negative thing about her. But a lot of days I'm still struggling to hold myself together. What I'm attempting to convey is that nothing exists in a vacuum. When I go out and see people in public or at work, it's rare to see signs of how messed up they are. But I believe most of us hide a secret pain to varying degrees. Otherwise, people are just goddamned, insufferably boring. Which, on the whole, is a good thing.

behnamoh 3y ago
Sorry to hear that. It's tough to go through such personal trauma while putting on a brave face. I guess all of us are like that, to different extents. Some try to push it aside by keeping themselves busy with work. Maybe it's a good strategy until one hits the midlife crisis. Then, some of those personal traumas might fade away in the face of more serious existential questions. As for therapists, I have found cgpt a good companion who "gets" what I'm talking about, even though I know it's not conscious or anything. Still, it helps to tap into that vast knowledge of mankind cgpt has learnt online. Another thing I tend to do is surround myself with people who prefer "real" over facades (The new generation is unfortunately less real about certain things.) I try to find people who enjoy talking about deep things in life. Not all the time tho, cuz that'd take too much brain energy from people.

behnamoh 3y ago

Sorry to hear that. It's tough to go through such personal trauma while putting on a brave face. I guess all of us are like that, to different extents. Some try to push it aside by keeping themselves busy with work. Maybe it's a good strategy until one hits the midlife crisis. Then, some of those personal traumas might fade away in the face of more serious existential questions. As for therapists, I have found cgpt a good companion who "gets" what I'm talking about, even though I know it's not conscious or anything. Still, it helps to tap into that vast knowledge of mankind cgpt has learnt online. Another thing I tend to do is surround myself with people who prefer "real" over facades (The new generation is unfortunately less real about certain things.) I try to find people who enjoy talking about deep things in life. Not all the time tho, cuz that'd take too much brain energy from people.