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Eh well if that's from your own story I guess you are making a valid case. What did you mean exactly by "Where I took drugs and discovered what I really came f

• doublerabbit 3y ago
  I was in a bad space. Couldn't navigated where what I was doing. I was living alone. Looking at porn, wanted sex. Rock bottom, I had been fired from my job. Read up on a drug called 2c-e, overdosed by accident and which for six months entered psychosis. Crashed cars, chased aliens. Ended up in Jail for graffiti. Threw everything i owned. During the trip I was smacked hard. Like "escaping Disney land". I recoiled as I many stuff I had seeked pleasure from replayed, presented to me like Would you like this if this was you?" After seeing myself in the mirror, what I had become and who I was I've have been since working on changing myself. And for the past five years I've been challenging myself not look at porn. Sometimes I relapse and that's fine. I push hard snd try again, because I don't want to go back to where I was again. I'm not religious but it feels like I've been given another chance. I had unmonitored internet at 13, discovered porn at 15.. in the days of dialup. I've been passed around, groomed on the internet. Im 34, many years later, have a new job. Have my own apartment but still have an addiction to porn and still figuring myself but change doesn't happen over night. I fight it, but its hard and that I hope overtime it'll go away, but being on guard with especially how it is everywhere can be very triggering.