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Early this year I had cold symptoms that just could not get away. I was getting sick, recovering and getting sick again. After some 2 - 3 weeks I have accidenta
by throwawayxyz345 3y ago
Early this year I had cold symptoms that just could not get away. I was getting sick, recovering and getting sick again. After some 2 - 3 weeks I have accidentally learned about long covid / cfs. I have immediately made myself believe I had this and experienced sharp worsening of symptoms - at some point feeling so tired I thought I was going to pass out. I was doing that pacing thing to the extreme, believing I have no energy, for some 2 weeks, my life was hell of only about 1 - h / day of not laying and doing nothing. Not to mention the severe trauma of thinking that my life is over. Trying to do whatever cognitive activity for more than 10 min resulted in a severe headache. After 2 weeks I got covid, I was still laying down all day anyway but I passed it with minor symptoms. 2 days after I thought, wait a minute, maybe it was all fake symptoms, the sharp increase in symptoms after learning about it, the fact that it was not covid that initiated it in the first place. I felt a bit off, slightly a bit off for a few days but I was able to carry on with my days as usual and then I felt 100% well. The problem is that I have got slightly sick one month later and experienced similar, cannot get well, for some one week.Then 2 months later, I got sick again, and it was the same thing with recovering and feeling sick. It's round and round, feeling shitty for 2- 3 days (able to do work though), feeling good for 2 - 3 days, I have had this for a month now but each time it occurs it has a smaller impact. I have yet to find out what it is for sure, I hope it's all made up, whenever it hits I'm actively trying to convince myself that it's not real and try to ignore it. Anyway, I have learned the hard way that hypohondria is not just anxiety / fear about falling ill for some disease, the imaginary symptoms can be much more severe than "my chest hurts, do I have some heart disease?".