I don't beat myself up about this. Hating myself is why I let myself be abused with obscene on-call for years. Respecting myself and deciding what I cared about

I don't beat myself up about this. Hating myself is why I let myself be abused with obscene on-call for years. Respecting myself and deciding what I cared about in life is what allowed me to quit that job, even though it was secure.