I recommend you keep at it, I also hated interviewing and it would give me anxiety which made me draw blanks and under perform embarrassingly a couple interview

I recommend you keep at it, I also hated interviewing and it would give me anxiety which made me draw blanks and under perform embarrassingly a couple interviews. The trick for me was diligently applying to as many places as possible (that were at least somewhat of a fit), and eventually coming across one where the main technical part of it was "take home". Coding and discussing thought processes on the spot for an audience isn't something I'm good at it turns out, but solving a practical problem on my own time was fine. It's ultimately a numbers game, the more places you apply to, the more likely you'll find an interview process that fits. That is the most important thing to keep in mind--shotgun blast those applications. It's hard not to take rejection personally, but don't give up and settle for a toxic job, that's even worse.