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> 2. Overwhelm myself with positive true thoughts in the same area as negative thoughts so I gorget about the negative ones I'll use computer analogy for why t
by _hao 4y ago
> 2. Overwhelm myself with positive true thoughts in the same area as negative thoughts so I gorget about the negative ones
I'll use computer analogy for why this is a bad idea (at least it was for me when I did it). That's pushing the problem down the stack and it builds up internal negative pressure. I've done this and it made me even more miserable at the time. You _shouldn't_ mix negative or positive feelings at the same time just like you can't have two distinct things at the same time in the same memory space. In my experience trying to push myself to be positive just made me even more apathetic, depressed and cynical. It just made my internal balance to go to super (-). Having mixed feelings (±) could as well be the definition of deadlock, race condition, halt and catch fire etc. type of thing that happens to us all. It's what leads us to procrastination, dopamine chasing and the effects of those things.
The fix for me was to stop pushing myself and try to find the root for some of my fears, insecurities, previous beliefs. It takes internal work and observation, _NOT RATIONAL ANALYSIS_ to try to reach the roots of your issues. We were emotional beings before we were intelligent. The emotional system is a lower-level system than the intelligent/rational system we employ as modern humans. You should observe your emotional state and when you get there, you'll see that your negative thoughts are really not that of a big deal and they're not you and that they don't define you. If your first point is true and you have understood that, then this step should be relatively easy for you. Once that "clicks" you really do feel a certain feeling of lightness and calmness. It means you've let go of those things that were pressuring you inside. It's not happiness (+), but I'd say it's a pleasant neutral (0) where you take things as they are and have the potential to go on about the things you want.