- I listen to an unpoliticized radio show of 2hrs. It’s irrelevant for life, but funny, it’s not cut by ads (Les Grosses Tètes in France), and it keeps my mind

- I listen to an unpoliticized radio show of 2hrs. It’s irrelevant for life, but funny, it’s not cut by ads (Les Grosses Tètes in France), and it keeps my mind off my annoyances (like, failing at life), - I listen to Youtube videos about plane crashes to get to sleep. Not too good for sleep, but better than ruminating, and it stops at the end of the video (10-20 minutes). I think it smoothes me to hear about people’s death, after a youth being harassed that I can’t let go. Plus aviation shows are always about engineering, it tickles my rational mind, everything is logical, as opposed to humans. - Obviously, get a psychologist, to output your overwhelming thoughts, criticize your reasonings, and make plans for the future. Alternatively, people standing against bullying earlier in my life would have been a good way to prevent me from doing all I’ve done, but I’ve learnt you can only expect so much from humans lol, there is an expected level of violence in society, and the only way to prevent bullying is to be a bully yourself. Or that’s what everyone taught me, don’t be a victim, standup for yourself, it’s ok to do x or y, and blah blah blah, i.e. be as savage as the average of society, which is, a lot. A lot savage. God I wish things were different. Make it change. It’s Easter, let’s hope for a change ;)