Honestly, it sounds like depression. Talk to a counselor. As a secondary observation, it seems as though that you lack responsibility. Accepting responsibili

Honestly, it sounds like depression. Talk to a counselor. As a secondary observation, it seems as though that you lack responsibility. Accepting responsibility is what gives you a sense of purpose, regularity, and fulfillment. Responsibility is something that you must accept willingly, otherwise you will resent it. I suggest that you find someone to help. It could be an older person whose grass you mow, snow you shovel, and check in on regularly just to make sure that they are OK. It could be an after-school program. There's countless needs that will not be answered unless you actively choose to help. You can't do everything, but you can do something. Lastly, I suggest that you cut out the weed and limit the video games. The weed is most likely just a coping mechanism for whatever is causing your depression (so, too, is alcohol, overeating, etc.), and rather than dealing with it, you are masking it. Video games are similar. I love playing games, but I intentionally only play social games with my real-world friends (yes, I play Fortnite just so I can talk to friends across the country!). Otherwise, it, too, becomes a mask of deeper problems. Good luck!