Yes, but it's also something that I have been thinking about why. I hate not knowing why, even if it's for my religion, so if there is something in my religion

Yes, but it's also something that I have been thinking about why. I hate not knowing why, even if it's for my religion, so if there is something in my religion that I can't explain, I spend time thinking, dissecting, working (and praying in the case of religious things) until I understand the why. I don't fully understand the why yet, but I do understand a lot of it, enough to be completely confident in this. I'm working on the rest, and once I do understand it, in a scientific sense, I'll write and release the blog post.