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> Interesting aside, the "mental" addiction can be harder to kick than the physical. Some former opiate and gabapentin users I know have mentioned this - psycho
by cudder 4y ago
> Interesting aside, the "mental" addiction can be harder to kick than the physical. Some former opiate and gabapentin users I know have mentioned this - psychological cravings for even years after stopping. Anyone who has ever tried quit nicotine will also know this.
Oh yes for sure, didn't mean to make it seem like it wasn't. I was(/am) a poly drug addict from Finland. Buprenorphine and amphetamine were my jam for a couple years. One year of using intravenously daily. It's been years since my last time but I still think about shooting up every now and then. It's a deviously strong urge. But the mental battle doesn't only start after the physical stuff is over: at the beginning they both compound on each other and it's absolutely devastating when you've been awake for two weeks because of the restless legs...
- nicoburns 4y agoIf you don't mind me asking, how did you get into that in the first place? Was it purely recreational? Escapism? Or..?
- cudder 4y agoI first got into opioids at age 16 or so when I found boxes and boxes of tramadol prescribed for my father who had died of cancer some years earlier. Eating them made me feel good, really good. I guess that sparked my love for drugs. I was a recreational user and managed to keep things under control (except spending all my money) for many years. But in those circles most people are a bad influence on you. Eventually it all just spiraled out of control. It was so easy to keep slipping deeper a little at a time while taking steps in the other direction felt enormously hard. It's been about 6 years since I last shot up. Everything's going really good now. Granted I'm not sober by AA standards; I still smoke weed, and drink a couple of beers every now and then, and do psychedelics maybe once or twice a year. Whenever I start feeling blue.