Possibly because the topic, however painful, is not something that belongs on this forum. Now. I have been where you are. Get. Professional. Help. Do it. If

Possibly because the topic, however painful, is not something that belongs on this forum. Now. I have been where you are. Get. Professional. Help. Do it. If it requires you to break it down into small steps then find the number you need to dial today. Tomorrow: dial it.