I don't want to be rude but a little reality check would be beneficial for you. I recommend reading a little bit about history and how people actually lived in

I don't want to be rude but a little reality check would be beneficial for you. I recommend reading a little bit about history and how people actually lived in non-modern societies. It was not all rosy. In life you'll always have to deal with good and bad. You'll meet all kinds of different people. With some you'll click and with some you'll not. It looks like you're struggling (most of us have been there). As a first step I would remove 'be relatively updated about world events'. It's good to stay informed but try to limit the time you spend on news. As you said it yourself, there's almost nothing you can do about it. Focus on your locality, on your spouse, kids, family and immediate neighbours.