Ultimately I'm a man of reason but have been suffering from existential crisis since childhood, if children can suffer from that. This duality somehow granted

Ultimately I'm a man of reason but have been suffering from existential crisis since childhood, if children can suffer from that. This duality somehow granted me appreciation of Russian classical music, literature as well as Shestov's philosophy, but at the same time my reason half rejects his ideas. During the years I gradually distanced myself away from the formal self but a recent child birth regenerated it. It shall be interesting to re-visit it.