Sorry to hear. You seem to be in a very bad streak. Be careful of reaching "fuck it" and letting go. Bad luck can't run forever. Be careful with dissociative th

Sorry to hear. You seem to be in a very bad streak. Be careful of reaching "fuck it" and letting go. Bad luck can't run forever. Be careful with dissociative things like alcohol, drugs, and negative media/social media. Those are classic traps when you are down. They prey on vulnerable people. Focus instead on making things slowly get better. I hope I don't sound heartless but I've worked for years with people further down your current path. A lot of people just let go without understanding the consequences of that decision. You need to put taking care of yourself before you take care of others, including your wife. It's useless to take care of somebody just to burn out yourself a few months down the road and they end up on their own, anyway. Reach out for help in family, friends, and even the state. Just be careful about who you let in. YMMV