You haven't said anything about other emotions, so I've got to ask: do you let yourself feel anything? Not just joy, but sadness, disappointment, anger, or even

You haven't said anything about other emotions, so I've got to ask: do you let yourself feel anything? Not just joy, but sadness, disappointment, anger, or even outright hatred? Or are you so out of touch with your emotions (as many men are taught to be) that you've forgotten how to feel? If so, I'd start by finding a way to reclaim your emotions. You have the right to feel everything, positive and negative alike. To start with, here's an exercise. I want to you read my post and shout, "Hey, TheMoonToMyLeft, GO FUCK YOURSELF!". I want you to get angry, if you can. I want you to feel it, and act out that feeling. If you can't even do that much, then you're in a deeper hole than you suspect and you need to call your local suicide prevention hotline ASAP. Also, you need to start listening to heavy metal. Go fire up Paranoid, Master of Reality, and Sabbath Bloody Sabbath by Black Sabbath.