What happend to the inner critic character guy at the beginning? It's such a short piece but somehow he got misplaced somewhere along the line and never got a f

What happend to the inner critic character guy at the beginning? It's such a short piece but somehow he got misplaced somewhere along the line and never got a fair hearing. Putting the pieces together, it probably went something like this. One fine day as OP was admiring a review he just finished (and we're all guilty of this) he had a secret thought that "aah. this is creative work". That is when our friend, the inner critic came in and started with "That's not creative". Now why would OP's very own inner critic say that? The issue appears to be OP's lifestyle. He is not living a creative person's lifestyle. Which, alcoholism and poverty and what not aside, is rather glamorous and can be fun. Sure beats working 9 to 5. There is the promise of wild sex, drugs, cool friends, and a chance that some lost future generation may begin venerating you and your creative life. So neither OP nor his inner critic are really being honest here.