Are you seriously asking that question to a bunch of strangers ? It kind of pisses me off because your issue is so first world like and ridiculously obvious. I

Are you seriously asking that question to a bunch of strangers ? It kind of pisses me off because your issue is so first world like and ridiculously obvious. I say this with a little smile too. Go out into the world and become a true human being. Someone that feels and watches. Someone that spends time on small beautiful things that are not tech based. Cook, read, swim, bike, breathe. Walk, hug, love. Quit your job please. Use at least half of the money before you return to work. Please. Use the money. They are worthless if you don't use them on seeing the world and becoming a real human. And get some therapy. Of goodness sake find someone old and wise with a gestalt or other cognitive therapy degree. Take it easy and live.