I will try not to judge your situation, even if I may disagree with your assessment of it. When I was in rehab for drug addiction, after I hit my bottom (or wh

I will try not to judge your situation, even if I may disagree with your assessment of it. When I was in rehab for drug addiction, after I hit my bottom (or what I hope was my rock bottom), something I learned was to try and approach something in the smallest increments possible and to acknowledge / celebrate wins (no matter how small). Maybe this doesn’t apply to your situation, as my primary goal was to stop my substance abuse but if you can try to tackle your problem(s) in small increments, it might feel more manageable. Best of luck!